A seashore, a holiday, and two spicy vadas.

I have been on a de-cluttering spree off late. First in Lucknow, trying to get rid of all that has been accumulated over the years in the lofts and cupboards, stores and attics and serves no purpose anymore, and later, in Delhi, where I have little to get rid of.

Even though I am not really a hoarder and find it easy to let go of things (as opposed to people and emotions), I found over five used notebooks stacked inside my cupboard which were full of random musings and scribbling from the time I was totally into writing — or at least thought so: I was either always reading, or writing, or writing about reading, or reading about writing.

Most of these notes are unfinished. Some are mere thoughts, some are phrases, some read like a verse of a poem. They were never published and never shared, and perhaps will never be used. So I had to let go of them. And I will.

Among the notes, I found this particular passage, written in the courtyard of a guesthouse in Pondicherry, four years ago. Something told me I should retain it, if I ever write a book, maybe, just maybe, it will fit in there.

Here is the passage.

Those four tiny vadas, and one sticky, steaming hot idli, eaten at a stall, sitting on a narrow bench that had turned black with dirt and grime, with just a few street kids playing across the road, and the family of three — mother, father, son, — taking turns at the stove, the tap, and the cash box, was the most satisfying meal I had eaten in a long, long time.

Part of it could be the setting — I was right in the middle of the French Quarters in Pondicherry, and right behind the roaring ocean. The sun had been up long — about two hours — but had yet to catch up on its strength, and sea breeze flew in gently.

Just when I had started licking the plate clean of the freshly grounded coconut chutney, an act which I otherwise never indulge in, I noticed a man on the other end of the street looking at me intently. He would not be a day over twenty-five and was perhaps waiting for his plate of idli. I was suddenly conscious and embarrassed of what I had been doing. I left the remaining chutney as it is and finished the coffee in one long gulp. As I got up to pay and leave, I was conscious of his eyes following me.

Growing up in North India, I have experienced everything from roving eyes and curious looks to lewd remarks, cat calls, and even accidental brushing and deliberate groping, but I am used not to a set of eyes following me. I looked at the man again, I wanted to make sure I was not making this up; sure enough, he was looking at me. Now I was even more awkward and uncomfortable.

In the past twelve years, I had seldom been on my own. Either the husband or the girls have always been stuck to my hip, and in such a case two things happen: a) you are too preoccupied with people around you to notice others, b) others don’t pay attention to you. So the feeling of being observed that morning was alien, and, unnerving. And so, even though I was thoroughly enjoying sitting on the grimy bench, soaking in the sight and smell of the freshly cooked food, I left abruptly.

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